I never update but I’m still always on here. Creepin’ it up. ;)

I am so down about my post-baby body & weight.

It’s my birthday this weekend, so after that, I’m going to work my ass off, & go on an extreme diet.. I’m going to lose all of this weight.

I didn’t work my ass off to lose all the weight before I fell pregnant just to put it back on, & keep it on.

I love my baby girl so damn much. I know, that sounds just like every other mum in the history of mums, right? But I honestly love her more than even I realize. I mean, I know I love her, I know I love her more than I thought it possible to love anyone, but it just amazes me. I fall more in love with her each, & every single day. It’s almost as if my heart takes a few days to grow, & catch up on how much more I’ve fallen in love, & I’m left with this sudden realization of just how much I love this little human. I can’t put it into words, all I can say is that I’ve never experienced anything even slightly close to this. How did I do it? How the fuck did I create perfection? She has shocked me. I made this tiny little human who has not one single flaw, & a million good aspects. What?!

I am more than proud to call myself her mum. For the first time in my entire life, I am proud of myself. I cannot wait for the rest of my life. To watch her grow. To see her first day at school. To have mummy/daughter nights. To watch her graduate. To see her fall in love, & get married. To meet the beautiful grand-children she will one day create. I cannot wait. She makes me excited for my future, for the first time ever.